Sorry I have not been blogging yet this semester, but I had issues with handing in everything I needed to receive financial aid. The hold on my account made me ineligible to blog but everything is all good now! My blogs this semester will be slightly different than last semester. I want to get a little more personal and a little more candid. Last semester I tried to stick to talking about general experiences here as a student, but this time around I would like to use this space as a way for me to write out my feelings, clear my head, and record my personal experience.
As you will see as my posts start to come out, each one will be titled with a song title that pretty much sums up the content and vibe of my post. This one is Summertime Sadness by Lana Del Rey. I literally had the best summer ever, but in the back of my mind this sadness kept creeping up because I knew the summer would have to come to an end and I would have to return to Cornell without my friends. My friends graduated this past May and the thought of being here without them was enough to make me want to stay in Cleveland. And for a second I actually thought I was going to stay… But first let’s back track.
I was in Cleveland for the summer interning at I Can Schools, a network of charter schools focused on college prep. They were expanding into three new territories over the summer so I was extremely busy and I loved every minute of it. I was a part of Summer on the Cuyahoga, a program Cornell participates in, which houses college students from a select number of schools and provides them with programming, networking opportunities, an introduction to Cleveland, and we all have internships. I had such a great time and really excelled at my internship. Toward the end I even talked to my boss about potentially staying and just finishing school in Cleveland. But in the end I returned to Cornell with a renewed urgency to graduate. I now know that I want to return to Ohio after I graduate and I have narrowed in my focus on what type of position I want to hold in the field of education.
This summer was an experience in hard work, dedication, resilience, networking, sleeplessness, love, and most importantly I discovered who I am now and who I want to be. I met so many amazing people that I cannot wait to return to. These people treated me like family. I could not have asked for a better summer. I feel like I live in Ohio, which is a big deal for me because I have never felt at home anywhere besides my mom’s house. Every time I step onto Cornell’s campus I feel out of place. I have never felt at home here. It was an amazing feeling.
It was the saddest moment having to get into the car and leave, but I know once I get this degree and am able to return I will feel so much better for having finished what I started here at Cornell. It was a summer of possibly finding someone to love and a summer of loving myself.